That very fine day seems too... blur. It was too much to stomach for a day.

What happens when the past flashes right through you? In front of your very eyes? I found myself hiding hoping he wouldnt see me. Gosh. Its been years. If theres one person whom i will never want to meet ever ever again, it would be him.

Contented to know that i can always rely on a friend be it day or night. And also an unplanned meetup with a gf saves the day. All i need was some gf loving, gigglings to get things off my mind. Thank you. I may not have many friends but i keep those who are worth of my time, close to my heart.

And so i realised that i have not done the year end entry which i had been doing for the past years. I've decided to give that a miss, too busy picking up the broken pieces i guess. Whats the purpose of a new year resolution if you dont stick to it?? So, this year no resolution, nothing.

Just hoping for the best, for strength, faith and smiles. Cos its taxing when you put your hopes onto something and when it doesnt meet your expectations, you're gonna come crashing down.Hard.

So im not gonna let myself be messed up in this whirlwind. I forsee that i will be hitting the books. Going back to school has always been at the back of my head since forever. Been contemplating with the idea but i just dont know when to start. Feel that im more than ready cos if i dont do it now, when will i ever start?? Theres so much things i want to learn, to accomplish but time is not on my side..

2010, i just hope for the best :D

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes to turn this around...

It amazes me at how some people can be so fake. so hypocitical. The world isn't just about being who earns the most, who have the latest arm candy or who is better off.

If you're doing so good in life, it doesn't gives you the right to look down on others whom you classified as low class. Now, you can surely brag till the cow comes home but i don't give a damn about how you live your life.  Seriously, do you think i even care?? Do you seriously think im really affected? You must be crazy if you tink i do.

Cos life is so,so,so much more than that. And you, have to so much more to learn. Cheers. To life. Hahhh.

Dusty, dusty blog. It always happen. I get excited over a new blog and after some time i will totally forget it and in the end delete my account. Great.

So many things have been going on and i don't know where to start. Hmmm... My new job is great, very much different from what i used to do but i know i'll get the hang of it. Im totally glad to leave my previous job. Phew. I seriously thought i would go into depression if i had stayed longer. That job made me a cracky old woman for the past one year, coming close to 2 years. Wow!! Now i understand when they say, find something you love and you'll never have to work again. I SO agree.

But now i really have to brush up on my english cos i really need to understand what im reading! I never liked reading instruction manuals and here i am, reading one for 8 hours a week. Imagine the horror i have to go through.

Work aside, did i tell you i got engaged?? Yess i did, to my imperfect man whom i love in many imperfect ways. Hey, no one's perfect. I would love to take it slow and when the time comes, i'd definately walk THAT aisle.

I really hope 2009 would passby quickly cos its such a horrific year for me, at least! We're barely left with 2 more months and 2010 would make its appearance. And this time, i wanna make a resolution!! Haha. Sound so corny! Sister is sure gonna mock at me :p

Im gonna get some sleep now. I hope the monday blues won't get to me tomorrow. Yikes! Goodnite world.